I was Feeling Miserable

Sometimes we do feel in a total mess, right? 

I did, yesterday -.-

How it felt?

Bad. Very bad. I can say.

How bad?

Not good. Indeed.

My To Do's lists was awful. To make it worst, I only managed to finish 2 out of 9 tasks. My Add Maths Project really made me lose my sense. The ever too much Bio notes made me lose my smile, for a while. Someone gave me 12 missed calls. It made me thought that I missed something urgent, evendoor it wasn't. Why looked so desperate, right? -.- Next, my Chemist notes and exercises. Oh no... too much to complete. I felt dull... homework... studies... homework... studies.... a 360 degree of life is about homework and studies. Locked in the room. Knew nothing about other things at the outside of the room. Blur. Uncomfortable. In a T-total mess! That was happening to me yesterday, for a day, on Sunday, and it was a weekday. Yea, as a nutshell, I was in a fatal condition yesterday. 

However, things get better with time. I finished my works slowly and steadily. One step at a time. Relieve :)) My three sisters made me cheerful again. Miss Ixas was as usual, in her ever so weird and awesome self. Miss Anonymous, she became a weirdo to me. I'm wondering the reason she acted so like a lesbian today :/ Hormones. I guess. Miss Angelic, as beautiful as ever :) Her new profile picture is really great "Like A Boss; I'm A Retard' 

Again, back to normal and not what we say as break free from the norm. LOL Mumbling again. Early in the morning, 5S5 was having an issue with PLKN matter. Most of us didn't want to go. It started with Miss Ixas. Then the whole class was busy talking about the matter. I checked my name just now and the good thing is; yes! I will not be going for the first PLKN series. IDK about the next one. God's will be done. Next, we had Bio class with Mr. Johnny. "When we talk about primary we talk about the first and when we talk about secondary we mean the second. I know this sounds stupid but I still want to tell just in case you all don't know." We were laughing at his words. Then one part he gave us extra info about trees, "I know this is just want to tell you guys extra information. Want to show off ma..." He walked at the front of the lab and we were like, "Oh, he's so duhh..." Ha ha We were having Bio quiz and as usual, when the time was finished, we still struggled to answer the questions. Suddenly, he spoke,"Why you all so kiasu(don't want to give up/willful)? Don't be so stress. You all still can study more next time. This just quiz ma..." He frowned. Again, we were smiling and laughing at his expression. Somehow, our class like the way he teaches and speaks. And n &...tomorrow Madam Emelia will be teaching The Curse. Our class will be enjoying the English Language class, then. 

Just now a friend of mine went to my house. I was teaching her Maths. It really made me felt more happy to have someone to be with and a person that I can talk to sometimes. She's more like a sister :)) Younger sister, because she's younger 2 years than me.

I hope tomorrow will be a better day :)) 

In the Gloom :/ and Bloom :))

Passiveness of today's begun when:


I woke up at 4.35 a.m. made me felt dizzy as I slept merely for 2 hours. My Mathematics Modern exercises and 111/9 essays were to be completed yesterday night. That was the reason I slept less lately. My head was loaded with To-Do's lists. Oh Lord, I need time of my own. Really. So stressed sometimes. 


In school:
I walked to the duty station at Block A, Miss Anonymous didn't go for duty as she came late to school.and when the second bell rang, I went straight away to the classroom. As I stepped in, I sensed exhausted mood existed, widespread among 5S5 students. Of course, I was not excluded. We all had a bad day. Well, most of us did. Then I realized that my friends looked darker. Why? Oh don't bother. I was unstable, then. LOL The weather was hot and the classroom was alike an oven to us. The fan was switched to the maximum mode and guess what? We felt nothing, just as if there wasn't any air movements. Of course, we still can inhaled and exhaled. Yet, it was really hot and all of us was sweating like pigs! So uncomfortable and to make it worst, I kept on feeling sleepy. What a day! Before the first period Physics begun, Miss Anonymous entered the class, was sweating like a pig and when I asked her what caused her latency, she just said, "A lot." That was it and how it was said. In Physics lab... Sleepy. What a gloomy morning. That happened to me. My PEKA wasn't complete and just now I finished all the experiments. Tomorrow have to hand in all the reports. Not to mention Add Maths. 5S5 was facing tension during Madam Emelia's class. We got scolded. Our faults. Small matter and we were careless. Logic enough for Madam to get angry and unsatisfied. What we called it? Common courtesy? Yea. Some have some not. 


Somehow, we got our mood again after eating chocolates together. So funny. Smiles were shown and yea, that was a relieved. Chocolates really gave us the happy mode :)) The day was blooming again.


I went back earlier as I skipped EST class. I went home and in the evening Miss Ixas texted me:


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Bring your est book tomorrow. Our substitute teacher is cikgu bio.


Mr johny ling o.0? 


Yup.


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I think I'm going nuts. Even Mr. Ha said that we will be unable to skip classes anymore after this. LOL "This is the last time we can skip EST."




Ixas and Angelic are having issues with Catalyst and Abu. Anonymous? IDK. She looked okay. Tiredness still on her face. Written on her forehead. Me? Neutral. I think :/ Perhaps... Yha, I'm still neutral. Whatsoever is rushing in after this I'm going to do all that I can to success the marathon. 


Nyte2x






  

Words in My Head

It’s 1 a.m. and I’m still awake. I can barely close my eyes. Dear Lord, I should go to sleep by now. In few hours I will have to go to school. I’m thinking. Few words in my head. Sometimes the words are clear, sometimes not. Why? I have no exact answer what I’m actually thinking of now. Anything. Perhaps. Merely can’t asleep. For a moment I feel so well indeed. Free. From my past. Bitterness. Tears. Regrets. They all gone. Vanished. Alike the vapour in the wind. Similar to the waves tossed in the ocean. For almost 2 years I felt like a vagabond, a homeless stranger and yea, I’ve been wandering. So hard to say, even too hard to bare. Yet, it happened and I went through the storms.

Crisis happened in my life. Everyone is facing problems in life. Some big some not. The greatest assurance in life is God. Why? God have known you as you was, as you are and as you will be. Now and forevermore. He sees you as you are. As the lover knows his beloved’s heart. All the shapes and curves of her even in the dark. He formed you in the inward part. What can you hide but let Him has total control in your life? He is the way, the truth and the life (John 14:6) Take one step towards God. God will take two steps towards you. Similar to the parables of The Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11-32) No matter how sinful you are, you still have no way to run from Him. His name is written in your heart. How are you going to erase it? You can't. He shed His blood for you. I always fail my trials and dissapointed Him. Selfishness, proud and anger. We human so weak. Imperfect. Yet, without imperfection there will be no perfection.

Imagine that one day, you ask yourself where is the Sun when the rain pours heavily like bullets. What if the Sun gone forever? No light, no source of life. Simply darkness. Fear. Hopelessness. We always underestimate things. The moment when the Sun went away and the storms came in, always gently remind yourself that after the rains will come the rainbows. . .

Today is Monday

Morning! I woke up at 4 a.m. just now. I can barely got up from the bed and still wanted to sleep. Yet, I gently and carefully reminded myself to today is Monday and that the weekend ended yesterday. oh no no no. What should I do? Go to school, then. It's a school day. I still have to submit my 1Malaysia safety and another one on the Road Safety. Both the hardcopies and  softcopies. Actually I'm planning to skip class today but no. Ok, then. Go to school.


I don't know why but yea, I keep on feeling sleepy these few weeks. I need some helps now. May be I will put some slices of lemon in the sky juice later and bring the drink to school. Well, I got the idea from my classmates. Smart students with smart ideas. We all have our sanities inside of our vainities. Um... I'm pretty sure that Mr. Johnny is going to torture us with millions of questions about the Chapter 4 syllabus; Reproduction and Growth. Praise the Lord that the chapter is my favourite(my classmates also) and I have not much difficulties in understanding the content points. The only chapter that I can never get tired of is Chapter 4 :)) LOL Don't bother to ask why bha. Its what we called as knowledge.


OK, the best thing that happened yesterday was the Father's Day performance. The second best thing was that I was connected to my ex-classmates from the primary school, SK Bintulu. I said, "what?" Well, one of my classmates, Dayang Mordhiati formed a group of 'Classmates of 6 Mawar 2006' and she found my fb account. I was so glad. Happy. Excited. Glad. Surprised. and & n whatsoever there lha. 


I have to stop for now. I'm not sure what will happen today and I merely think that it's going to be a loaded day. I have the instinct to say this because, as you can read it, I'm typing the words now. LOL Have a blessed day.

Happy Father's Day!

Yesterday was a lot-f-things day. Why? Some here and there of everyday life of mine. I woke up at 4.30 a.m. without the help of my hand phone alarm. Said some prayer and thanked God for His goodness. Lazily and of course, still sleepy, I got up from my bed, walked slowly to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. For a moment, yea, I thought of continuing my sleep again. Yet, I still got some works to do. My 111/9 essays were starring at me, waiting patiently on the study table with their Oh-So-Sardonic smile. By 6.00 a.m., I went to wait for Umpang to pick me up to school. I waited for about 20 minutes and stood at the front of the gate like a tree. When he arrived at the front area, yea, he slowed down his car and when I opened the car's door, there he was, smiling at me. "Why late?" the question. He looked at his watch and smiled. Again. "Woke up late" the answer. Whatever. So off we went to fetch the other three girls before went to school. 

Arrived at the front area of SMK Bintulu by 6.40 a.m. and I walked fast to the duty station. Guess what? I was the most early prefect to come at the duty station. Boring. I have to make few rounds around Block A and still, boring. Nothing happen. The students were, as usual, busy with their own businesses. My best friend, Anonymous, came so late for duty. She looked a bit messy that day and that was it.

In the classroom, well, this was on Friday and not on yesterday. Here, Alexander bought soft drinks and junk food with the RM70 voucher he won. He bought it for the whole 5S5 class. People ate a lot on Friday. Rebecca Black was one of our topics on Friday. After recess, madam took the box of the soft drinks and said a "Thank you, Alex for the drinks." She said earlier, "When a woman is having her period, she is very sensitive. So, don't bother." That was it. LOL Awesome. And yesterday, madam gave Alex a pancake. Haha The other two of my best friends, Angelic and I'm Not A Slut, as usual, talked about the same topic for the week; Catalyst & Abu. Me? As I am, neutral. Yesterday, after recess, we had Bio class. OH NO! Our substitute teacher is very strict. "I will ask questions and give your class quiz EVERY week" and whatsoever that he said that time really made me started to miss Madam Yeo but dreams are just dreams sometimes. She is having a new baby now. A baby girl :)) And Mr. Johny Ling is replacing her as our Bio teacher. I just have to breathe. Similar to what I'm Not A Slut texted me yesterday when I told her about Mr. Johny Ling.

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Exhale... That's good for us.

After school, I went back home. This time earlier as Umpang drove faster. I got ready and then went to church. The brothers and sisters needed my help with the sound effects and PA System. Plus, last week I was absent for both the Youth Service and Sunday Service due to my trip to Kuching. In my longing to seek and serve the Lord, and I was missing all the times I had with the brothers and sisters in Christ, I made up my mind to attend the Saturday Youth Service. The Father's Day performance went well yesterday. My senior, Miss Patrica, was so happy to see me. It seemed like so long I had not met her. Actually, it was only for two weeks. LOL

The Father's Day performance today went well indeed. The most fascinating and amazing thing was that, we performed the skit from Luke: The Prodigal Son and Pastor Jerry was sharing the Gospel from the same Bible chapter. "This means that we are sharing the same message, the same truth," he said. Pastor Jerry was the one who started the Calvary Church that we attend today. Without him, the church might not exist now. He will be taking his flight back to Kuala Lumpur this evening. In July, he will fly to Canada to further his study in pastoring for two years. If God's will, he will be back to Bintulu again. I knew his heart was moved when he watched the Prodigal Son Skit from our Youth Group. "This church is like a family church to me. I always have special relationship with this church," he said. He meant every word. "If you remember me, please pray for me," he added. No words to describe what he might felt. Yet, he will be going for the Lord. May the Lord always guide and provide his needs while studying in Canada. Amen.

I will be posting the pictures of Father's Day Performance soon. I have to go now :)) God bless you all...

Back to Bintulu

I'm Home!!!

:))

We checked out from Lodge 121 at 7.15 a.m. before we went to the Kuching Airport.The prefects departed from Kuching to Bintulu at 9.20 a.m.. Arrived at the Bintulu Airport at 10.22 a.m. and I waited for my Mom to pick me up for at least half and hour. At 1.14 p.m. later, here am I, typing on the blog and checking my Facebook. Praise the Lord that we all had safe journey to and fro :))  Cabrini is staying at Kuching. Her parents and siblings went to meet her at the Kuching Airport. I will share all the precious and memorable experience I had during the trip to the University of Swinburne. 

Great time in Swinburne!

Have to sign out now :)) want to take a nap... Have a blessed day!

First Day in Kuching

Hello readers! :))

I'm onlining here from Lodge, 121 Kuching. The Prefect's Board arrived at the Kuching Airport this morning. We went to University of Swinburne and had our lunch. Next, we went to the Kampung Budaya. After went back from there, we went straightaway back to Lodge before having dinner. I will post more about this trip later on my next post. :))

Have a blessed day!

Nyte2x... don't let the bugs bite!

Off To Kuching!

Morning!

:))

Arise and shine everybody!

Yesterday I packed all my things with the help of Mom. Now I'm about to go to the Bintulu Airport. I can't wait until I see Cabrini and Dyona :)) Jessica will be waiting for us at the Kuching Airport together with Jie Hua and they will join us when we arrive later. So, I'm going now. Have a nice day and may God bless you all. :))

Father's Day Performance

Theme Song for Father's Day

I had not downloaded much songs for the main theme music. I'm not so sure if any of the songs is suitable for the Father's Day performance. I searched for the song that Shirley Empaling asked me to download "Kaulah Segalanya" from GMB yet I didn't find any. So I searched for other songs. I think we have to ask Aunty Grace about the theme song. Here are the lists of links I accessed:

Selamat Pagi Bapa-Nikita

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_T2L1315OMw&feature=related

Bapa Engkau Sungguh Baik-Nikita

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3RG_DAKCeHc&feature=related

Bapa Terima Kasih-Talenta Singers

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lAxp4JShxkU

Sound Effects

It's a bit difficult to find some of the sound effects. For farm sound effects, I accessed to this link: http://www.sound-effect.com/track/farm---early-morning--loop--230/ 

If you are unable to download just use the sound recorder in the accessories in your laptop. 

Drama Props

Patrica and I already discussed about some of the props. We can make sign boards for each scene in order to make the audience understand the plot better. I will do the sign boards. For the pig image, we have not decide who will do the drawing work. I'm still unable to contact Patrica's phone number. Since I will be back to from Kuching on this Saturday afternoon, I won't be able to join you all for Youth. 

Here are the list of scenes:

Scene 1

At the Farm

Scene 2

In the Club

Scene 3

In the Pigpen

Scene 4

Back at Home

Please inform me if there any mistakes about the scenes and other related matters. I hope this will be helpful.

May God bless you all :)) 

Thank you.

Wake Up On Tuesday Morning

I was still sleeping when Mom woke me up to tell that she had to go out. Sleepy, I just simlpy said, "OK..." So Mom went out and I think an hour after that, I rose from my bed and saw the watch. Oh, it was 10 a.m. sharp. Slowly, I walked to the sink and brushed my teeth and then took my bath. On the kitchen table, my breakfast was already prepared by Mom. I brought the glass of Milo and placed it on the study table in my bedroom. The day is raining outside and I'm feeling cold.


After the rain comes the rainbows :)) I think maybe the rainbows apologize for the angry sky. Weather is a great metaphor of life: sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad, and there's nothing much we can do about it but carry and umbrella.

Today I want to finish my Addmaths. In Addmaths, there are too much problems to be solved. LOL I already get enough crisis of my own yet I have to find solutions for Addmaths. Well, life is so complicated that we have no words to describe the exact metaphor of it. The scope is merely too wide. It just tomorrow before I fly to Kuching. I really wish that hols could be longer. . . Well, holidays can be good times :))

When it comes to holidays, I will be like 

Holidays! Holidays! Yayy!!!

When the holidays is over, I will turn to this

What??? I still want holidays no matter what!!!

and

This morning I woke up to know it's Tuesday

Still sleepy there.

Preparing for Kuching

I was doing some research in the Internet when a message came. I checked my phone inbox and read it. The Tour Manager of our Prefects Board texted me to inform that I'm in Group 4 and that I have to do the self check in for the flight tickets. 

Here's the print out:

My Group 4 members are:

- Jessica Miluh :))

- Davies

- Nurhajatul

- Fesila

- Malisha

- Khairunnisa

Things need to bring:

It just few days away :)) God bless us. Amen.

It's Monday

Morning :))

It's Monday and the greater things about today is it still holiday! Its a bit dark outside, just as if the rain is about to pour down soon, I guess. Last night I texted with a friend and fell asleep. Oh, nothing can ever stop me from sleeping in hols. I call it as hibernation LOL This holiday I really enjoy the time of being be with myself and family. I use the time to go for reading and listening to music. Last night I had a weird and bad dream. I think :/ not so sure. I can't remember it well. BTW oh what so important about it? I'm living a real life now n & and I'm really living it out. Um... I'm still thinking about time management now. Okay... SPM seems to be so soon this year. Uhh... I really have to think about SPM like T-totally have to :)) Right... when it comes to time management :/ yea... people say when we use our times rightly and usefully, we can gain great successes in life. I see. Even those with the IQ of a peanut would have known that to pass with flying colors in SPM is a great challenge. 

Rain :)) it's raining outside now. The weather is wet outside and I'm feeling... comfortable here sitting on the sofa and typing and reading and seeing and thinking now :)) So, until  here today. Have to go now. 

Happy Blessed Sabbath Day!

Everyone is still in Gawai mood, I think :)) so many members of the church were not able to attend the Sunday Service as they still in their villages. I'm missing two of my sisters in Christ. Its been a while since I met them few weeks ago. I'm planning to complete my English language journals by tonight. I'm pretty sure that I'm going to enjoy it. So so so what's next? Ok... my Physics. All the definitions and formulas. I have to finish them all by tonight as next week I will be getting busy for my Mission; Moral-to-Completo. Oh my sardonic smile here and now. By the way, I have to go now :)) see ya!

Morning Everyone!

:))

It has been few days since I made my last post. Now I'm typing here again. I'm sitting on the sofa now in the living room. I had just finished searching information for my 111/9 journal given by Madam Emelia Jane. Overall, our class have to finish 6 titles and I have 3 more to go. My holidays is just moderate. I celebrated Gawai with my family and friends. Small family gathering. I'm waiting for Christmas to come :)) I know right? Still long way to go and this year is revolving so fast. I think. Don't you? I'm going to sit for SPM this 2011 and & n I'm preparing myself to achieve excellent results. 

This week I'm planning to finish the 111/9 works and next week, I will complete my Moral folio before my trip to the University of Swinburne. The incomplete reports and pictures of the assignment have to be done. 

OKAY

Gotta go now. 

:))